It’s been over two years since I last posted here. I had to step back from this space for a while. Life was throwing challenges my way—my health was in flux, and my aging parents needed more of my time and support. And of course, Covid came in like a wrecking ball, disrupting life as we all knew it. Unfortunately, as the years progressed, those challenges only deepened. At the end of 2022, my world was shattered when I lost my father. It was, without a doubt, the toughest time of my life. The grief felt like a physical weight on my heart, something I never could have prepared for.
All of 2023 and most of 2024 became a blur of grief and healing. Even as I continued to work, I felt like I was moving through life with a heavy cloud over me. During those years, I had to pull back from everything and everyone—except my mother. I needed solitude to process my emotions and just... breathe. I know withdrawing isn’t always the healthiest response, but in those moments, it was the only way I could cope. Sadness, anger, guilt, bitterness—it all came in waves, crashing over me relentlessly.
In my quest to heal, I tried a bit of everything. Therapy became a lifeline, and I found solace in things that used to bring me joy: extended trips, diving into books, being surrounded by nature, and even dusting off my sewing machine. Slowly, I also found myself becoming more spiritual, leaning on a deeper connection with something greater than myself. I can truly say that these steps brought me back from a dark place. I'm in a much better space now than I was two years ago. Of course, grief is a lifelong companion; I still have my moments, and I know I always will. But I'm no longer lost in that darkness.
Finding My Way Back
Fast forward to the present: I’m slowly but surely stepping into a new chapter. Life is moving fast these days, and while it’s overwhelming at times, it’s also exciting. Juggling work, social media, socializing, traveling, searching for a new home—it’s a lot, but it’s a lot of good. I’ve been blessed with more paid brand collaborations, my social circle is expanding, I’m almost debt-free, and I’m in good health. For that, I am grateful.
Change is definitely the theme of my life right now. I'm preparing to move into a new home, embracing new relationships, and exploring destinations that have long been on my list. As part of this fresh start, I’m also recommitting to my blog. Social media is great, but it’s often just snapshots of life. Here, I want to dive deeper and share more thoughtfully.
So, thank you for your patience and for sticking around. I’m excited about what’s ahead, and I can’t wait to share this next chapter with you. Let’s make it a beautiful journey, together.
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